4/18/2016 0 Comments #NAKEDME“I keep pressuring my boyfriend to come to formal because we never see each other, Like it’s been almost 6 months. So he finally said yes (and he’s in the Navy) and I was just super stoked about that. I’ve been wanting to go to the San Diego Zoo for so long. They have the sun bear there, which is my favorite bear, And I just found out they have free military tickets so I want to do that. I"ll have my perfect day at the zoo.” “I’ve been very worried about my dad because he keeps having back surgeries and he has Parkinson’s Disease, I just can’t imagine what I'd do without my dad or both of my parents. I don't know if this is normal but I call my parents 3-4 times a day. I just love checking in with them if I have a major accomplishment, Like I got an A on a Japanese test today. I update all the time and they’re always the one who has to go. I just get so sad when I realize that they’re not immortal." “Whenever I get upset at someone I find it's usually because I’ve misread them. I'll think that they don't like me so I’ll vent to my best friend and it’s really funny because whenever I do that, The universe slaps my wrist. Then that person will be so nice to me the next week and I'll look like a huge bitch. So a big thing for me is to not judge people right away. I get very snappy sometimes, if I'm like 'Why didn't she smile at me? She must be an evil person.'” “My biggest insecurity is my skin. I used to have terrible acne in high school and I took this thing called Accutane, But it's very dangerous like it’s been banned and put back on the market, but my dermatologist still recommended it. So now I just have normal person acne, But because of that I always wear makeup and whenever I'm without it I feel naked, Except around my boyfriend...he loves it when i dont wear makeup. I don't freak out as much about it, but I'm still thinking about it all the time. I'm always trying to get my skin smoother and clearer.” "Today marks my 4th week of my booty workout program. It’s inspired half by my boyfriend because he has an amazing perky butt made of steel, But also by Katya Elise Henry who is just my #fitnessgoals. I'm honestly trying to gain weight and get more curvy. Now that I'm 20 I want to have a more mature look and be healthier. I honestly want a bigger butt because I like butts, But I also want to be more energetic because I'm always so lethargic, I get tired so easily. I had anemia in high school, And I also fractured my hip from running track senior year. I always try working out for a day or two but then end up quitting, But now I stick to a strict weekly schedule and I love it. I like weights a lot better. I’ve conquered my fear of lifting by all these Chapman boys and they’re not scary anymore." “I fear my parents not seeing a book before I publish it. So that's why I am trying my best and taking my novel manuscript very seriously, Because I just really want to be published. That’s been my dream since I was a little girl.” “I dislike my shyness. It sounds so lame because I know it's something that you just need to get over, And I do my best, But I'm very hestitant in dancing weirdly in front of others and stuff like that. I always look at girls who do silly shenanigans in front of people like put a cone on their head and wiggle around, And I want to be that type of person. I was like that in highschool because it was only 33 people and we'd known each other for 7 years, But at Chapman unless I've known someone since freshman year, I'll be very hesitant. So I've been trying really hard to speak up. I think my voice is soft or something, Like people don't always respond, but I try to open my eyes and look attentive. I try hard to be a social butterfly.” I’ve been really proud of this novel I’ve been writing.
It’s about teenage demons in OC. It’s like Twilight but maybe more of a Clueless/Seth Rogen hybrid voice or that’s how I hope it sounds. I ditch writing projects a lot if it’s out of free will. We have to write 8,000 words and it’s for a class and I want 50,000 words by August. I want to submit my manuscript to swoonreads.com, which is a community of writers that sends in manuscripts. They rate it and the top manuscripts get published. But I'm also just having a lot of fun with it...like it’s ridiculous! And I'm getting more in tune with my writing because that’s what I want to do as a career."
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