4/12/2016 2 Comments #NAKEDME“I feel happy when I’m driving with my friends with the windows down and music blasting. Or shopping at target cause we’ll get in the cart and push each other around the store and it’s awesome.” “I’m afraid of not pushing myself to my full potential. A big fear is that I’m capable of doing so much but I’m afraid I’ll hold myself back and not be able to do everything I want to do. So that…and spiders.” "Going to college for the first time I felt very naked because I had no support system. I felt like I needed to have something that other people had and like I was lacking something essential. I was afraid and exposed. I felt like everyone could see that I was terrified on the inside and that I didn’t know what I was doing.” “I think I have a great spunk for life. I’m proud of how I take happiness in little moments and even when I’m sad I try to have that happiness, And it pushes me to not only challenge myself but to partake and not miss out on life.” “I’m ashamed of my weaknesses. I feel like by this point I should be focusing on making them strengths and dealing with them. I’m ashamed when I have a weak moment in my life.” “If an inner scar of mine was visible to others, it would in the center of my sternum and it would be a chaotic zigzag, Like it would look like I’m split down the middle. The same thing happens a lot of times in my life, especially in the fall: I lose sight of myself and feel scattered and not whole in some way and that’s always something to deal with. But it would be a scar because I’m always able to put myslf back together. I grow from the experience.” “Living in California last summer was amazing. It allowed me to meet the people I’m close with now and they’ve helped me to find myself And discover who I want to be and what kind of life I want to have. It taught me about true independence cause I had to work two jobs. I now know how to find that inner strength to do what I have to do when it’s just me.” “I dislike my tendency to overthink. It causes me to not be in the moment and I don’t put my all into it when I overthink."
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Debbie McLellan
4/12/2016 04:10:53 pm
Atty, you are very brave to "bare yourself". Very proud of you. Love you a lot. Mom and Dad
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Meilin
4/13/2016 07:53:14 am
Atty, that's really beautiful and inspiring. I'm happy to see you're doing well. Some of the things you said were definitely relatable and just what I needed to see to step out of my own shell. Thanks a bunch and I miss you. <3
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