4/10/2016 4 Comments #NAKEDME“I’ve always been a part of a big group of friends especially in middle and high school. We were the girls that had sleepovers and were best friends. I'm still close friends with two of the girls that I’ve known since middle school, But in 11th grade we got into a little issue and they weren’t talking to me for a couple of weeks. Still, it wasn't as bad as I thought it would be. Of course I loved them and missed them but being alone was not terrible and I realized that I was my own best friend, And no matter what the situation was, I could be okay wherever and whoemever I was with. I just watched a lot of Supernatural I watched all 9 seasons, missed a couple of school dances, and hung out with my parents a lot. I think it was then that I realized that I really enjoy my own company.” “I generally try not to hold back what I’m thinking or that sort of thing. I don’t like feeling as if you can’t say hi to an ex. I don’t feel like you should have to feel weird around someone you used to care about, And ideally still care about in some shape or form. I hate feeling like I have to hold back around people cause I’m not as close to them anymore.” “Last semester I took a nonfiction writing class and you had to write about things that really happened and you’re supposed to use real names, And I wrote about one of my childhood friends for one of my pieces and then a bunch of people read it. And you sit in a room with those people and they talk about it and that’s a really weird experience, Because the writers talk about you as a character and the character’s motives and what they took from it, And you have to be quiet and just listen. That was a really interesting experience and I definitely felt naked.” “It was really sad for me when my dog died. It was over the summer and I was at Laguna with some friends and I didn’t have a car. She had been in a fight with another dog and she was a Shitzu so it was silly cause she's so small and she was barking up the wrong tree. But it was just really sad cause we had to call everybody and it was weird cause I didn’t want to be a bummer. I didn’t have any cellphone service so I had to use the home phone to call everyone, And I was stuck there with them for the next day So anytime I felt like I was gonna cry I just went to the parking lot to hide. I think it was Lemony Snicker who said, 'It is noble to help someone who is crying but sometimes it is nobler to pretend that you don’t see them crying.' I had to be like, 'Aha yeah we’re having such a fun time,' But yeah it was not that great." “For a lot of my early life I was kind of like labeled as ‘the weird kid.’ I feel like that’s everyone’s story haha But this kid Nicholas Grodsky told me in middle school that all the boys from our school got together and agreed that I was the weirdest girl in the school. And everyone said that people called them weird as a kid but I was named #1 weird girl so I guess that’s just like a scar in itself, That I never really got along with bigger groups of people or the ‘cool kids.' They didn’t really like me. They weren’t mean to me or anything. You want to be one of the kids that are liked, but I got over that in my own way and I was friends with other weird kids so that was all good. I dealt with it." “Sometimes I forgive people when I shouldn’t and I don’t when I should, And that’s not something that I’m proud of because in those situations you can know this is something I should get over, Or this something that I shouldn't. Like I shouldn’t go back to this person, But if you still feel a certain way like if I still feel angry, there’s not much I can do about it.” “I’ve never really been one to be afraid of things like bugs or heights,
But I used to be afraid of people. Now I try not to be because I don’t think anyone should make you feel a way you don’t want to feel. My biggest fear would be a zombie apocalypse because that would be the biggest bummer. You would have to deal with the fact that the government has fallen and everyone is dead (depending on what type of apocalypse it is). Maybe it’s a biting situation, Or you have to deal with the people you love turning into these monsters or them trying to eat you... So zombies."
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Paulette
4/12/2016 04:46:56 am
My deep, deep Zoe. I love you so very, very much. I hurt when you hurt. I laugh when you laugh. I cry when you cry. We are so much alike in our thoughts. You are your mother's child. I love you.
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Biggest Sissie
4/12/2016 11:45:56 am
There are no words to describe how much I adore you and how proud I am of you. My heart is your's forever...anything you need or want, if I can give it, it is yours. Or I can break some knees to get it...lol. #loveyoutoinfinity
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Sharon
4/13/2016 09:39:59 pm
Beautiful writing and pics - very raw and real.
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Aunt Hazel
4/17/2016 09:45:29 pm
Mesmerizing, very candid. I enjoyed reading it.After each insight into your young world I was anxious to see what was behind the next tree. Please continue to add to your trees and publish it. You are a great raw writer. Loved it. Love you.
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